THIS week was a GREAT week full of so much GOOD stuff. BUT my absolute highlight had to be that WE FINALLY got notice that we have a reserved home on post! We joined the wait list for housing back in January and they told us then that it would be a two month wait. It was going on two and half months, we were still in the 140s on the wait list, and our lease is ending at the end of next month. I’ve been calling daily, sometimes multiple times a day, just so they wouldn’t forget who I was. Thursday we were told they might have a house for us, and Friday it was finally reserved for us! AND it won’t be ours until the end of the month! Cutting it close, but it happened, and I’m super relieved!
Pretty sure my stress has affected my body again. This week I’ve been very aware of when my stress has gotten to be too much for me. I’ve been good about taking a break, a moment to myself, and focusing on what I need to do to think positively again. Maybe it’s the amount of sunshine we’ve had this week, but I’ve been feeling SO MUCH better. Kicking anxiety and depression’s BOOOOTY!
My taste in music is EXTREMELY diverse. Give me Patsy Cline, System of a Down, Nikki Minaj, Aerosmith, to the most indie rock you’ve never heard of. This week my favorite music has been what’s considered “Noise Pop.”
“Blood on Our Hands” Death from Above 1979 (YouTube video here)
“Comeback Kid” Sleigh Bells (YouTube video here)
“Fall in love” Phantogram (YouTube video here) I’m OBSESSED with this song! ♥
I’m still working on Hollow City by Ransom Riggs (it’s the sequel to Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children). I’m having a harder time getting into this one, and I know there’s going to be a third book in the series… I just feel like the first one was so amazing and now he may just be milking the series for all it’s worth. I don’t know. It’s still really good, it’s just harder to get through. The pictures are worked into the story not as smoothly as the last, too.
I’m a huge fan of Christopher Walken! This week the Huffington Post released a compliation of all the scenes where he dances in his movies. I think the clips are from 37 some movies! AND it’s incredible!
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Counseling is getting better, and it’s really great to talk to someone who knows from a medical and professional standpoint that what we are feeling is normal and completely justified.
I got a great response to my last post. I think it’s funny when people say I’m being brave and strong for posting things about my miscarriage. When I write them and post them I feel entirely vulnerable. BUT I do want to give some voice to the women who silently go through the same situation.
Also, a lot of things have been said to me and about me on social media that has completely made my month! If you haven’t exposed yourself to Loey, you should. She’s been incredibly sweet to me and I’m so glad that I found such an great friend!
I started taking down my office. It was my baby and putting it together while Steven was deployed helped me get through it! Now to get ready to put it up in a new house, and deciding which room of our three will be exciting!
The house we are currently renting will be going up for sale after we leave. The real estate agent came this week with the owner and our property management and kept complimenting me on how clean it was and how well I have decorated the place. She insisted on taking photos because it looked like a great place to live. Confidence boost indeed!
It got close to 80 degrees this week. It may snow tomorrow or Monday… BUT it’s starting to warm up and the sun is shining! Let the GROWING happen!
PACK! PACK! and more PACKING! Now that I know I’ll have a place to put things, it’ll be easier to find motivation to wrap them up and stick them in boxes!
Hope everyone has an incredible weekend & I will see you Monday! ♥ ♥ ♥
Winter day in Sacramento, CA
- In California, Ugg boots and scarves are more of a fashion statement than a necessity. Here in Kansas, it gets COLD and stays COLD. When it’s only in the teens and there is a wind chill on top of it, you better believe that fuzzy boots, scarves, gloves, ear muffs – ALL of it is COMPLETELY necessary to be as close to comfortable as you can be outside. Back home, if it dropped into the 60s, I remember seeing girls in mini skirts and Ugg boots walking around campus. The funny thing I’ve noticed here in Kansas is that NOT many girls wear Ugg boots at all! Boots are worn, but not those signature Ugly ones.
- Back home, if you fight to have an up close parking spot, you are usually considered lazy. A few extra spots behind will not hurt you. Here in Kansas, if the temperature is low enough, frost bite can set in quickly, as short as a three minutes (if not sooner). That closer parking spot takes on a whole new meaning and necessity.
- Thunder ALSO happens when it’s snowing, Stevie. Turns out Thunder Snows are a very real, very bizarre, thing. You can watch a CNN video of it on YouTube here.
- More of a similarity, than a difference, but Kansas people freak out when it starts snowing and they’re behind the wheel. Californians have a very similar reaction to rain. You have the people who drive like complete jerks and cannot be harmed by the dangers, and on the other hand, you have the people who are afraid to hit the gas pedal at all.
- It never rains here in the winter (rain is for summertime thunderstorms). Back home, it only rains (and never snows) in the winter. Californians treat rain as an inconvenience – but really, snow is the biggest inconvenience ever. You do not have to shovel feet of snow off your driveway and walkways. If it’s raining the hardest it ever has, you can still go places. Snow locks you indoors and keeps you there!
- Panic shopping the day/night/hours for food and supplies before a storm is a dangerous sport.
Winter day in Fort Riley, KS
They kept saying that this was going to be the worst winter Kansas has seen in 10 years. Considering we had nothing in comparison to the “Blizzard of Oz” they had last year before we got here, I consider us lucky! Way to slowly break us in, Kansas. I will knock on wood that it’s not a false alarm, and the heavy snowfall is over with! Last year we experienced our first Kansas snow in the very beginning of May!
We’re in counseling, we’re talking, we’re on our way to healing. We’re still in the introduction, retelling our story, opening the scar a bit further stage – but it’s nice to talk to someone who has never personally experienced a miscarriage and does not feel the need to deduce your pain as nothing or something easy to move on from.
A couple weeks back I was getting ready for bed and going through my skincare routine when this happened:
I finally finished The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield this week. If you have not read it, I highly recommend it. It’s written BEAUTIFULLY, and it’s a tragic and haunting tale of the past. I discovered that BBC Two has made it into a TV movie and it looks SO GOOD (see the trailer here)! I have to figure out how to watch it and soon! AND I started Hollow City by Ransom Riggs (the sequel to Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children).
The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon! (Gif by JfallonLove on Tumblr)
Anything and EVERYTHING Grace Helbig!
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This is the first weekend of Manhattan’s Fake (& real) St. Paddy’s day celebration and our neighbors are already at it. I think the thing that annoys me above all things is hearing the bass of someone else’s music over your own in your own home. ARGH!
Monday we’ll reach almost SEVENTY degrees here! Wednesday, it may snow. So um, Kansas is bipolar and makes plan making very difficult! As much as I love the cold, I’m pretty much over it. In fact, next week I may post my “Californian in Kansas” winter edition, because winter here is no joke!
“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Kennedy
“The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it…”
― Nicholas Sparks
“They say time heals all wounds, but that presumes the source of the grief is finite”
― Cassandra Clare
“And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore.”
― Anne Lamott
“We have to heal our wounded world. The chaos, despair, and senseless destruction we see today are a result of the alienation that people feel from each other and their environment.”
― Michael Jackson
“Scars have the strange power to remind us that our past is real.”
― Cormac McCarthy
“The human heart has a way of making itself large again even after it’s been broken into a million pieces.”
― Robert James Waller