100 Happy Days ♥ Days 21 through 30

Well, well, well! I have some catching up to do! With our lack of internet since we moved (see my update here), I’m a little behind on posting my 100 Happy Days here on my blog! If you follow me on Instagram, though, you’ll see I stayed up to date and sacrificed the data usage on my cell phone.

In case you are new to my blog, I have been taking part in the 100 Happy Days Challenge and I have been posting my daily happy onto my Instagram account @CameraKristen. I chose to do this challenge because January was a tough time for me, my husband and I lost our first pregnancy after having tried for almost two years. I was devastated and found it hard to be happy. They say that with time the wounds will heal, but it doesn’t hurt to try a little extra to find HAPPY in each and everyday.

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20

Monday, April 21st 2014

The packing went into SERIOUS mode that day. When my makeup goes into bags instead of strewn about a counter space, it means it’s almost time to either move or go on vacation!

Tuesday, April 22nd 2014

That day was a little bit harder to find my happy. Everything of ours that could be taken apart or down from the walls had been (except for the clock, of course) and everything that was not going to be eaten was packed! Our neighbors started to party around 2 in the afternoon: beers, yelling, and their new favorite game of stump (also known as nails or hammerslaugen). In that situation, I tried to zone them out however I could. My favorite photo editing app Afterlight added this new frame, and I used it to express me imagining I was in my happy place: California!

Wednesday, April 23rd 2014

That day we did a bit of wondering around downtown and at the end of it, my husband got me this cute little bouquet of flowers!

Thursday, April 24th 2014

After a day of final checks of everything being packed, everything ready to be moved, and everything in between – happiness was putting my feet up and watching Bob’s Burgers with the husband.

Friday, April 25th 2014

We got the keys to our new house! It’s kind of weird when you move into military housing – they show you the place after it’s been reserved for you – and you can either say you want it and take it that day, or say you do not AND back on the waitlist you go! Luckily – WE love it!

Saturday, April 26th 2014

MOVING DAY was absolutely hectic. My happiness was this photo that was sent to me by my mom, showing that no matter what home we have, our real home is always beautiful California.

Sunday, April 27th 2014

We unboxed everything, tried to put away what we could, tried to organize the furniture to the best of our abilities, AND we tried to recover from the previous day. Bottle of beer: well deserved!

Monday, April 28th 2014

I had put away the major things on Saturday, and Sunday was the day to put together the rest of the puzzle pieces. CHAOTIC indeed!

Tuesday, April 29th 2014

It was a rainy and gloomy day and was actually cooler – very much appreciated on my part! We started to venture around post (which even though we’ve lived in Kansas for a year, we hardly know our way around the actual post area) and it was really nice to just be driving around without a load of items in the car with us!

Wednesday, April 30th 2014

We said goodbye to our first Kansas home! It was cute, but very outdated. A lot of hard times were had in that house, but some very good visits with people we love happened there too!

If you would like to see my daily posts as it goes along, follow me @CameraKristen on Instagram! If you are taking part in the challenge or are thinking about it, let me know! Let’s be happy together! ♥


A Week Without Internet

Whoops! It’s been two weeks since my last post! It was actually quite accidental really. We moved on post, almost effortlessly! We only moved a half hour away but had to change our television and internet providers because they did not serve the area of our new home. Our internet provider’s installation process and customer service has left MUCH to be desired. We finally got internet on Monday, an entire week after they should have had it up and running. The last two days are entirely my own fault for not posting!

We LOVE our new home! It’s 3 bedroom, 1.5 bath, all hardwood except in the kitchen and bathrooms! We do not share any walls with our neighbors, just a driveway, and they have been wonderful! Everything is out of boxes and practically all organized – minus my own office. Moving here has even been good for our lifestyle habits, we have a community office that we frequent for their gym.

ANYWAY – I’m back! I guess I will skip my post on April’s Ipsy bag and my favorites for last month, but I have to catch up on my 100 Happy Days project and other things as well!

Please excuse the short post for today. It’s my birthday! See you tomorrow! ♥

Packing Tape, Veterinarians, & Happy Thoughts

It’s been almost two weeks since my last post! For those of you who care, thank you, and my apologies! Life got hectic and by the time I had a moment to sit I could not muster out the words.

As soon as we finally found out that we were going to get to move on post we started packing up our current house. When our renting company found out that we would not be renewing, the owner decided to sell the place. They showed it a few times before it even went on the market, and it sold then too. The house was cute for the showings at least, but after that, everything went into boxes! There’s still two weeks until we get the keys to our new place, but everything is off our walls, taken out of closets, and put into boxes! We’re ready to go!

We’ll have three bedrooms, two bathrooms, and no basement – JUST in time for tornado season! We’ll have more room than we know what to do with and hopefully MUCH better neighbors. Even then, we will not be sharing any walls with our neighbors (unlike most post housing). We will share a driveway area but that is it!

My cat, Tayte, is one of the main reasons why I have not posted recently. Last Thursday she started to get VERY sick. We took her to the vet on Friday, and all her vitals were normal and healthy. However, my kitty was throwing up often and acting very lethargic. On Sunday she started to feel better, but still had symptoms of illness. Today, I think she is finally back to normal. I don’t know if she got stressed out due to all our stuff being in boxes suddenly, or if she ate a bug that just did not set right with her.

I have been good about keeping up with my participation in the FatMumSlim Photo Challenge as well as the 100 Happy Days Challenge on Instagram (follow me here)! I’ve definitely been focusing on going out of my way to feel happy, do things that make me happy, and be around those who make me happy. Life is too short to feel anything but happy, but sometimes life gets in the way doesn’t it? Trying to keep that smile on my face. It’s time to start again, get a new chapter going, and all that good stuff! So, please excuse me for my temporary absence, It’s going to be a crazy few weeks more!

Saturday Seven ♥ Vol. 5

Happy first weekend of SPRING everyone! I’m usually someone who DREADS this season because of allergies, but the warmth and sunshine is very welcome this year. It was a bad winter, it was cold, it was gloomy, and it was heart breaking. Spring is definitely going to better! OR ELSE!

THIS week was a GREAT week full of so much GOOD stuff. BUT my absolute highlight had to be that WE FINALLY got notice that we have a reserved home on post! We joined the wait list for housing back in January and they told us then that it would be a two month wait. It was going on two and half months, we were still in the 140s on the wait list, and our lease is ending at the end of next month. I’ve been calling daily, sometimes multiple times a day, just so they wouldn’t forget who I was. Thursday we were told they might have a house for us, and Friday it was finally reserved for us! AND it won’t be ours until the end of the month! Cutting it close, but it happened, and I’m super relieved!

Lesson Learned:
Pretty sure my stress has affected my body again. This week I’ve been very aware of when my stress has gotten to be too much for me. I’ve been good about taking a break, a moment to myself, and focusing on what I need to do to think positively again. Maybe it’s the amount of sunshine we’ve had this week, but I’ve been feeling SO MUCH better. Kicking anxiety and depression’s BOOOOTY!

Listening To:
My taste in music is EXTREMELY diverse. Give me Patsy Cline, System of a Down, Nikki Minaj, Aerosmith, to the most indie rock you’ve never heard of. This week my favorite music has been what’s considered “Noise Pop.”

ALL their music, not just those albums, are amazing! My favorites songs from them include:
“Blood on Our Hands” Death from Above 1979 (YouTube video here)
“Comeback Kid” Sleigh Bells (YouTube video here)
“Fall in love” Phantogram (YouTube video here) I’m OBSESSED with this song! ♥

I’m still working on Hollow City by Ransom Riggs (it’s the sequel to Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children). I’m having a harder time getting into this one, and I know there’s going to be a third book in the series… I just feel like the first one was so amazing and now he may just be milking the series for all it’s worth. I don’t know. It’s still really good, it’s just harder to get through. The pictures are worked into the story not as smoothly as the last, too.

That Happy Feeling:
I’m a huge fan of Christopher Walken! This week the Huffington Post released a compliation of all the scenes where he dances in his movies. I think the clips are from 37 some movies! AND it’s incredible!

inspirational quotes with flowers

image from LanaLouStyle.com

I’ve been addicted to TUMBLR overall, really.

image from Prismcess on Tumblr

& Sundry:
Counseling is getting better, and it’s really great to talk to someone who knows from a medical and professional standpoint that what we are feeling is normal and completely justified.

I got a great response to my last post. I think it’s funny when people say I’m being brave and strong for posting things about my miscarriage. When I write them and post them I feel entirely vulnerable. BUT I do want to give some voice to the women who silently go through the same situation.

Also, a lot of things have been said to me and about me on social media that has completely made my month! If you haven’t exposed yourself to Loey, you should. She’s been incredibly sweet to me and I’m so glad that I found such an great friend!

I started taking down my office. It was my baby and putting it together while Steven was deployed helped me get through it! Now to get ready to put it up in a new house, and deciding which room of our three will be exciting!

The house we are currently renting will be going up for sale after we leave. The real estate agent came this week with the owner and our property management and kept complimenting me on how clean it was and how well I have decorated the place. She insisted on taking photos because it looked like a great place to live. Confidence boost indeed!

It got close to 80 degrees this week. It may snow tomorrow or Monday… BUT it’s starting to warm up and the sun is shining! Let the GROWING happen!

The Plan:
PACK! PACK! and more PACKING! Now that I know I’ll have a place to put things, it’ll be easier to find motivation to wrap them up and stick them in boxes!

Hope everyone has an incredible weekend & I will see you Monday! ♥ ♥ ♥

Californian in Kansas ♥ Winter Edition

It is hard to believe that in a matter of days, my husband and I will have been Kansans for an entire year! We moved from the valley of California to the North East corner of Kansas last April. It was somewhat of a culture shock, and a weather shock mostly. Where we are from it does not snow, it hardly gets humid, and there’s never a tornado warning EVER. Towards the end of last summer I did a post on how different it is here (if interested, you can find it here). When it started to cool down here, I realized that autumn and winter here are also different than what we are use to, for even more reasons. Here are a few more differences I have noticed:

Winter day in Sacramento, CA

  • In California, Ugg boots and scarves are more of a fashion statement than a necessity. Here in Kansas, it gets COLD and stays COLD. When it’s only in the teens and there is a wind chill on top of it, you better believe that fuzzy boots, scarves, gloves, ear muffs – ALL of it is COMPLETELY necessary to be as close to comfortable as you can be outside. Back home, if it dropped into the 60s, I remember seeing girls in mini skirts and Ugg boots walking around campus. The funny thing I’ve noticed here in Kansas is that NOT many girls wear Ugg boots at all! Boots are worn, but not those signature Ugly ones.
  • Back home, if you fight to have an up close parking spot, you are usually considered lazy. A few extra spots behind will not hurt you. Here in Kansas, if the temperature is low enough, frost bite can set in quickly, as short as a three minutes (if not sooner). That closer parking spot takes on a whole new meaning and necessity.
  • Thunder ALSO happens when it’s snowing, Stevie. Turns out Thunder Snows are a very real, very bizarre, thing. You can watch a CNN video of it on YouTube here.
  • More of a similarity, than a difference, but Kansas people freak out when it starts snowing and they’re behind the wheel. Californians have a very similar reaction to rain. You have the people who drive like complete jerks and cannot be harmed by the dangers, and on the other hand, you have the people who are afraid to hit the gas pedal at all.
  • It never rains here in the winter (rain is for summertime thunderstorms). Back home, it only rains (and never snows) in the winter. Californians treat rain as an inconvenience – but really, snow is the biggest inconvenience ever. You do not have to shovel feet of snow off your driveway and walkways. If it’s raining the hardest it ever has, you can still go places. Snow locks you indoors and keeps you there!
  • Panic shopping the day/night/hours for food and supplies before a storm is a dangerous sport.

  • Winter day in Fort Riley, KS

    They kept saying that this was going to be the worst winter Kansas has seen in 10 years. Considering we had nothing in comparison to the “Blizzard of Oz” they had last year before we got here, I consider us lucky! Way to slowly break us in, Kansas. I will knock on wood that it’s not a false alarm, and the heavy snowfall is over with! Last year we experienced our first Kansas snow in the very beginning of May!

Saturday Seven: Vol. 4

It’s been EXACTLY a month since my last Saturday Seven! NOT that I’ve been up to anything crazy or exciting really. I’ve had the intention, but not enough motivation.

We’re in counseling, we’re talking, we’re on our way to healing. We’re still in the introduction, retelling our story, opening the scar a bit further stage – but it’s nice to talk to someone who has never personally experienced a miscarriage and does not feel the need to deduce your pain as nothing or something easy to move on from.

Also, Steven looked up how to duplicate McDonald’s french fries at home, and he’s become a pro at it. Of course, we put a twist on it, adding cayenne and other spicy spices!

Lesson Learned:
A couple weeks back I was getting ready for bed and going through my skincare routine when this happened:

I had barely bumped it against my medicine cabinet, but the bottom shattered into a million little pieces and dumped out all the product along with it. It had been awhile since I purchased it (it retails at $50 but I’m sure I bought it at ULTA with 20% off and some other coupon), but I was still upset over it. I wrote an e-mail to BareMinerals customer service, explaining that I love the product but I was so disappointed how easily it broke and how I wish they would consider changing the packaging. WELL – after a few exchanges, they offered to send me another, free of charge! So, hey, thanks BareMinerals for being an awesome company! Received the new one a few days ago, and yes, they have changed the glass packaging to plastic!

Listening To:

Phantom Planet Phantom Planet is Missing, Head Automatica Decadence, Sleigh Bells Treats are the albums I’ve been listening most to this week! “Fall in Love” by Phantogram has been my favorite SONG this week!

I finally finished The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield this week. If you have not read it, I highly recommend it. It’s written BEAUTIFULLY, and it’s a tragic and haunting tale of the past. I discovered that BBC Two has made it into a TV movie and it looks SO GOOD (see the trailer here)! I have to figure out how to watch it and soon! AND I started Hollow City by Ransom Riggs (the sequel to Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children).

That Happy Feeling:

The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon! (Gif by JfallonLove on Tumblr)

Anything and EVERYTHING Grace Helbig!
Gif by That’s Grace on Tumblr

& Sundry:
This is the first weekend of Manhattan’s Fake (& real) St. Paddy’s day celebration and our neighbors are already at it. I think the thing that annoys me above all things is hearing the bass of someone else’s music over your own in your own home. ARGH!

Music makes me happy and so I made a new Last.FM page here. This basically makes it possible for YOU (or anyone really, it’s the internet!) able to track what I listen to, what I like most, etc. If you have a profile, add me! If you do not, join! I think it’s a really fun way to be nosey about what your friends listen to as well as discover new music!

The Plan:
Monday we’ll reach almost SEVENTY degrees here! Wednesday, it may snow. So um, Kansas is bipolar and makes plan making very difficult! As much as I love the cold, I’m pretty much over it. In fact, next week I may post my “Californian in Kansas” winter edition, because winter here is no joke!

I need to catch up on a few award posts as well as a few tags I’ve been putting off! AND to read all the wonderful blogs I’ve fallen behind on!

Please spay and neuter your pets! Don’t forget to turn your clocks back an hour tonight! Only you can prevent forest fires! ♥

Kansas & the Konza Prairie

The Konza Prairie is a beautiful place in the Flint Hills here in Kansas. It sits on the outskirts of our town. It looks COMPLETELY different during every season. I’ve seen it in the very late parts of summer, and now on the verge of spring. It’s starting to get a bit warmer here, even though I feel like it’s a complete tease, since it snowed in the beginning of May last year. Regardless, we’ve been able to venture onto the trails a couple times this year, and last time I brought my camera along. In celebration of spring approaching, here’s the re-awakening of this beautiful prairie. Also, possibly, the re-awakening and healing of myself.

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Kennedy

“The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it…”
― Nicholas Sparks

“They say time heals all wounds, but that presumes the source of the grief is finite”
― Cassandra Clare

“And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore.”
― Anne Lamott

“We have to heal our wounded world. The chaos, despair, and senseless destruction we see today are a result of the alienation that people feel from each other and their environment.”
― Michael Jackson

“Scars have the strange power to remind us that our past is real.”
― Cormac McCarthy

“The human heart has a way of making itself large again even after it’s been broken into a million pieces.”
― Robert James Waller

I hope you all are having a great start to your weekend. For more information on the Konza Prairie, you can visit their website here. If you are in the area, I highly recommend a few hours here. You will still have reception the entire time, but it’s kind of fun and therapeutic to not use it. Be a rebel, you know?

I will see you tomorrow. ♥