100 Happy Days ♥ Days 91 through 100!

It has been over a month since I completed the #100HAPPYdays challenge and my apologies for posting it so late. On 100HappyDays.com the creator claims that 71% of people who start the challenge will not complete it, claiming lack of time as the reason why. I am apart of the 29% who managed to complete it! I started this challenge in attempts to mentally recover from having a miscarriage after battling infertility for two years. Halfway through, on Day 50 strangely enough, I suffered from a second miscarriage. I originally posted on Instagram that I would restart the challenge a week or so later, but I quickly went back on that, and continued on. The challenge is about finding happiness in your day, no matter HOW bad your day may be. Did I have time to be happy every single day? Not necessarily. I MADE TIME.

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20 & 21 – 30 & 31 – 40 & 41 – 50 & 51 – 60 & 61 – 70 & 71 – 80 & 81 – 90

On 100HappyDays.com there are claims that people who had completed the challenge benefited from some positive effects including: being in a better mood every day, they started receiving more compliments from other people, they realized how lucky they are to have the life they have, they become more optimistic, and they fall in love during the challenge. I suppose to each their own, especially when things going on your life can hinder or improve happiness. I would not say I was in a better mood BECAUSE of the challenge, but had a better attitude about the day when looking back on the photos of what made me happy that day. I would not say I necessarily received more compliments, but was better at accepting the ones I did receive. I have never been one to take life for granted and every day I’m thankful for the opportunities my husband and I have been given. I would definitely not say I became more optimistic, however, that was because of my situation and what it means to me. As far as falling in love during the challenge, I fall in love with my husband every single day. I think the “falling in love” benefit the website lists is more of a falling in love with life and happiness, rather than a person.

Monday, June 30th 2014

The day before my parents arrived for a visit I finished a few projects I had around the house, cleaned up the place, and washed all the laundry. I felt accomplished!

Tuesday, July 1st 2014

My parents made it to our house just in time for dinner. I made buffalo cauliflower (I HIGHLY recommend! My favorite recipe is from PersnicketyPlates.com) and Steven made a homemade pizza!

Wednesday, July 2nd 2014

For the FMSphotoaday challenge, the prompt was something beginning with K, so I took a photo of my Kodak camera! It was a day of taking mental images as my parents and I caught up!

Thursday, July 3rd 2014

Steven got off early from work so we drove to Manhattan, Kansas, and showed my parents around our favorite spots! We discovered Chris Barr’s Cabin in the process. It was found inside a home when it was torn down, and is believed to have been apart of the Underground Railroad!

Friday, July 4th 2014

Since fireworks are not allowed on post, we took it easy for the Fourth of July this year. We ate a big dinner and took my parents on a nearby hike along the river! When we made it back on post, it was perfect timing to sit up on the hill and look down to a nearby town and watch all the fireworks go off.

Saturday, July 5th 2014

Steven and my dad went fishing and my mom and I went to my favorite thrift stores! I found this Steve Urkel doll and could not help but take a photo or two of it. The TGIF television line up holds a lot of fond memories for me!

Sunday, July 6th 2014

There was a huge heatwave and it prevented us from wanting to do much at all! Temperatures were in the high 90s to 100s and the humidity way too high for our blood. We drove around Milford Lake and came across the discovery center and fish hatchery there. This little piggy in a tree near there was too happy not to capture.

Monday, July 7th 2014

The weather was a bit cooler than it had been over the weekend, so the boys attempted to go fishing again. My mother and I went off post to some thrift stores, most of which were closed for the four day weekend. We did manage to find an open cupcake shop though!

Tuesday, July 8th 2014

My parents left that morning to travel a bit more before returning home to California. Kansas was back to being the state of Steven and Kristen.

Wednesday, July 9th 2014

I decided to leave the #100HappyDays photo challenge exactly the way I came into it: with a selfie! It’s up to me whether I choose to be happy or not. I have to be the one to fight for my happiness.

Was I happy for 100 days?! No.
Was I able to find something happy in every single day? Yes.
The #100HappyDays challenge showed me that happiness is a journey NOT a destination. You have to enjoy the journey, look for the good when you hit those bumps in the road. Looking over everyone who has taken part of the challenge, it also shows that the journey can be harder for some people. It’s easy to be thrown off course, and to be honest, I got back into a bad place after the 100 days was over. It’s really easy for people on the outside to throw out a “just be happy” or “choose happiness” when it’s not that easy.

I did it! I made it to 100 days! I recommend it. There’s so much good that can happen spiritually and emotionally from looking for the HAPPY in each and every day!

Can you find the happy for 100 days?

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Photos featuring Fluffy White Clouds

With everything that has happened this past year, I feel as though I built a lot of barriers around myself and my feelings. It is bizarre to me that some people who have been through the same thing can be so unsympathetic. It is hurtful how ignorant people who have not been through it can be. I have been lucky enough to come in contact with MANY wonderful people who do understand, though, do not get me wrong. What I’m trying to say is, I feel like in many ways, I have lost my way with words.

I’m trying to get myself back together, back into the world, back into the old, but good habits. I’ll write more about my journey back to happiness next week.

These past few weeks I’ve spent a lot of time behind the camera lens. These are the snaps from the past week!:

Last weekend was Steven’s birthday weekend. I thought for sure we would spend every day fishing at this particular spot. We only went last Saturday, but it was probably the most beautiful day to be there.

While Steven fished, I sat back at a picnic table brainstorming blog ideas. Not a bad view.

I use to ALWAYS take jump photos. The area was so green, I had to take the opportunity to shoot one for old time’s sake. I’m a little rusty.

I’m making a video for Steven’s family because they have yet to be out to visit us. Since we moved into a new house, I’ve video taped a tour, as well as the surrounding areas. We went to a few of our favorite places on post.

I like to caption this one with “Eat your heart out Led Zeppelin!”…. (Stairway to Heaven)

While we were at the top, the clouds got quite the sense of humor. I turned around to see what almost appeared to be a working chimney!

Thanks to my handy dandy tripod, I took a few photos of Steven and I! It was really hot and I wore out quickly running between Steven and my tripod! We got a few good ones, but the majority of them we looked too tired.

We’re still in counseling for our miscarriages, and when I told our counselor that I had taken maternity photos for a friend she grimaced and gave an empathetic nod. I told her I actually did really well with it. My friend pictured found out she was pregnant the same day as I did, the first pregnancy that I lost. Her due date is ten days after mine would have been. Not until I was home sifting through the photos did I realize that if I was still pregnant, I would have looked the same. Even then, I was able to quickly shake it off. Granted, I have high hopes that we will have our rainbow baby next year. I have been having more good than bad days lately.

One day at a time.

100 Happy Days ♥ Day 81 through 90

I’m almost caught up on my #100HappyDays posts! This is the second to last! I’m using this as filler for where I have been (short and to the point?) before I get into the usual posts. I have now completed the challenge (that’s how far behind my posts are!) and I am now working on FatMumSlim‘s July photo challenge.

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20 & 21 – 30 & 31 – 40 & 41 – 50 & 51 – 60 & 61 – 70 & 71 – 80

In case you are new to my blog, I have been taking part in the 100 Happy Days Challenge and I have been posting my daily happy onto my Instagram account @CameraKristen. This year started off emotionally draining and on April 1st I decided it was time to fight back! This project has helped me see the wonderful in every day – even if it is just something small. Halfway through, I was painfully reminded why I started this project but I didn’t give up. There is ALWAYS something to be happy about and thankful for, even when you are going through a tough time!

Friday, June 20th 2014

Nothing gets my husband to want to hang things for me more than an upcoming visit from my parents! At that point, we had been living in our new home almost two months AND some of the walls were still very bare! We finally had our bedroom furniture where we wanted it so I collected what I wanted to be hung – and my wonderful husband made it happen!

Saturday, June 21st 2014

We thought our new patio furniture was going to be delivered that day – BUT instead just the new table showed up at our door. It was a hot day but we spent it on our patio, testing one another’s knowledge of 90s music.

Sunday, June 22nd 2014

This is semi an inside joke, but not really! We had some friends over for a BBQ. After dinner the guys made a game of our bug zapper and even got the fly swatter involved. They tried to hit bugs into the zapper. It was definitely a “you had to be there” moment!

Monday, June 23rd 2014

It was a very good mail day! My husband brews his own beer and got a lot of new equipment to do so and I got my brand new Kindle Fire HDX! I cannot give Amazon enough credit for having such amazing customer service. My old Kindle Fire (the first ever to come out) stopped charging and Amazon gave me a huge discount on a new one! I was so excited to have books at my finger tips again as well as so many new cool features!

Tuesday, June 24th 2014

On the left, is my new Kindle Fire HDX. On the right, is my old Kindle Fire. That day I received the skin for my new one, exactly like the old. I’m a fan of Vincent Van Gogh and “Blossoming Almond Tree” is my absolute favorite painting by him – CAN you tell?

Wednesday, June 25th 2014

I cleaned the house, did tons of laundry, re organized what needed to be situated better, and Tayte was my shadow.

Thursday, June 26th 2014

Two days in a row of Tayte! I had been fighting the worst lethargy that I finally made my way to the doctor about it. They are not entirely sure what’s causing it, but kitty snuggles couldn’t hurt!

Friday, June 27th 2014

After a relatively relaxed and low key week, it was very nice to get out of the house and meet friends for dinner and drinks. Pictured is my favorite, a snake bite! It’s half and half, Guinness and cider beer!

Saturday, June 28th 2014

It was such a lovely day! We went into town again, snagged some lunch to go, and ate it in our favorite spot in town. Last year the water was a lot lower and we use to walk out into it!

Sunday, June 29th 2014

“Donuts make people happy!” is the slogan for a local donut shop – AND I could not agree more! My favorite is definitely the one with the raspberry jelly center!

100 Happy Days ♥ Day 71 through 80

I got distracted by life again. I thought of posting something along the lines of where I have been and photos of all the in between, but I think I will save that for another day. Anyways, this is my happiness project and it pretty much summarizes where I have been! I have now completed the challenge (that’s how far behind my posts are!) and I am now working on FatMumSlim‘s July photo challenge.

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20 & 21 – 30 & 31 – 40 & 41 – 50 & 51 – 60 & 61 – 70

In case you are new to my blog, I have been taking part in the 100 Happy Days Challenge and I have been posting my daily happy onto my Instagram account @CameraKristen. This year started off emotionally draining and on April 1st I decided it was time to fight back! This project has helped me see the wonderful in every day – even if it is just something small. Halfway through, I was painfully reminded why I started this project but I didn’t give up. There is ALWAYS something to be happy about and thankful for, even when you are going through a tough time!

Tuesday, June 10th 2014

Sometimes I paint. Sometimes I add color to something new, sometimes I change the color of something old! This particular day I was painting plant pots!

Wednesday, June 11th 2014

We started to move things around the house to the way we really liked them (only took us two months!). We moved around our bedroom furniture and put our bed against a window – which seemed a little awkward. Thanks to Pinterest, I made it a bit more decorative AND in turn got a great reading light too!

Thursday, June 12th 2014

I finished up a few odds and ends around the house. This pot has a rainbow on it to reminds me to have hope that we will have our rainbow baby one day. I also (tried) to paint the footprints of our two angels that we lost.

Friday, June 13th 2014

We wandered around Manhattan and somehow I convinced my husband to stop by the JoAnn’s. Too many pretty things to choose from!

Saturday, June 14th 2014

We had got this pet bed on clearence at Marshall’s the day prior. Before the bed, Tayte (our cat) would lay on top of a blanket placed awkwardly over the couch. I think she almost thought we were trying to block her from getting into the window at all when we first put her bed in the window. She took awhile to warm up to it, but now it’s hard to get her out of it!

Sunday, June 15th 2014

It was father’s day and my womb was empty. We were lazy, we had heavy hearts, we took it easy. I did get to plant some of the flowers I had purchased a week before though!

Monday, June 16th 2014

It was the last day of a four day weekend for my husband and we kept ourselves occupied! The power went out for several hours around dinnertime. We had to order out and sat in the driveway waiting for our Chinese food to be delivered.

Tuesday, June 17th 2014

My wonderful husband hung this painting (from Hobby Lobby) and the mirrors (from Target) we had gotten the day before. Our living room walls started to look a lot less bare! In the caption on Instagram I mentioned that within a week’s time, I expected myself to crack and spray paint the frames to the mirrors…

Wednesday, June 18th 2014

… In actuality, it only took 24 hours!

Thursday, June 19th 2014

I joined a book club! We ventured into the post library for the first time since living here. Yes, it was love! Being surrounded by books is one of my absolute favorite feelings!

100 Happy Days ♥ Days 51 through 60

When I went on an unintential hiatus I fell behind with my posts on my 100 Happy Days Photo challenge! Please excuse the realitively close postings – but I am almost all caught up. These are the photos from days 51 through 60. I am currently on Day 78!

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20 & 21 – 30 & 31 – 40 & 41 – 50

In case you are new to my blog, I have been taking part in the 100 Happy Days Challenge and I have been posting my daily happy onto my Instagram account @CameraKristen. This year has been emotionally trying for me and my husband. In a few short months we’ve learned a lot of life lessons! This challenge is definitely helping me to remember to look for all the HAPPY in each and every day. No matter how tough times can get, there is always something to be grateful for!

Wednesday, May 21st 2014

This is easily my favorite road on Fort Riley. It’s lush and green, twisty and turning, and absolutely beautiful this time of year!

Thursday, May 22nd 2014

A post before this (not in the challenge) I said I would be restarting my 100 Happy Challenge later on and that I was having my second miscarriage. After some thought, however, I realized that that’s NOT what the challenge is about. It was about finding the good in each and every day. When I took this photo I was laying on a table in the doctor’s office, curled up in pain, waiting. I knew I was miscarrying even though I had not been officially told (this is something you just know is happening). There wasn’t a lot of happy that day, but I did have the image over their light reminding me to “just keep swimming.”

Friday, May 23rd 2014

It was Memorial Day weekend, which meant a four day weekend for my husband. The day started off lazy and sullen, but I didn’t want to be home to think about what was really going on. We wandered around town, not doing a whole lot, but my husband did get this hat!

Saturday, May 24th 2014

Again, not wanting to sit home and sulk, we went to Topeka. It was a muggy but rainy day, and I couldn’t help but feel like I had somehow conjured the ugly weather.

Sunday, May 25th 2014

All play and avoidance and no recovery made me a dull lady. I will save you the symptoms of miscarriage, but they do require some rest in the process. I had to take a day to do nothing but wallow in it.

Monday, May 26th 2014

There are subtle similarities to the house we recently moved into and the house I lived in as a toddler. One thing I remember about Spring and Summer nights there was watching the bug zapper. Steven and I had been talking about getting one, and even purchased and returned one before this, before we found the lantern style we were looking for.

Tuesday, May 27th 2014

With the warmer weather, it was obvious that summer has been approaching quickly. Nothing says summer quite like Sun Tea! This was our first batch this year!

Wednesday, May 28th 2014

I make magnets out of beer bottle caps! This particular day we got a new fridge – and I moved our collection to my husband’s chest freezer for the time being. But the new fridge was definitely my happy that day!

Thursday, May 29th 2014

I had got this tank top the day we went to Topeka, and wore it for the first time that day. My collection of “California” items is definitely growing!

Friday, May 30th 2014

As our own version of therapy and healing, we decided to buy a bunch of plants to put in our front yard. That poor sunflower didn’t make it much longer after being planted, though. My green thumb needs some work!

100 Happy Days ♥ Days 41 through 50

I have taken some time to myself after my most recent miscarriage away from writing. This time around I have definitely had more support, and for that, I’m entirely grateful. I did not want to write about what I was going through and dealing with because I did that the first time around – and people do not know how to react. That is entirely understandable. I know who would be there for me, and sure enough, they’ve been there to pick me back up. Anyway – I did manage to stay current with my 100 Happy Days, however, so I have lots of catching up to do!

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20 & 21 – 30 & 31 – 40

In case you are new to my blog, I have been taking part in the 100 Happy Days Challenge and I have been posting my daily happy onto my Instagram account @CameraKristen. This year has been emotionally draining for me and my husband. In a few short months we’ve learned a lot of life lessons! This challenge is definitely helping me to remember to look for all the HAPPY in each and every day. No matter how tough times can get, there is always something to be grateful for!

Sunday, May 11th 2014

On Mother’s Day this year I found out that I was pregnant for the second time. It was going to be our rainbow baby! It was also going to be our secret until we got tests done though, having made our first pregnancy public too soon (only to be followed with bad news almost immediately). We spent the day on and off the phone with our mothers and ran a few errands in between. I also found possibly my favorite ice cream flavor EVER! Ben & Jerry’s That’s My Jam is chocolate and raspberry ice creams with fudge chips and a raspberry center AND it’s incredible! ALSO seemingly impossible to find now that I’ve admitted my love for it!

Monday, May 12th 2014

This was taken on the way to the hospital to get an official pregnancy test done. There had been a crazy thunderstorm the night before and it had made it a much cooler, refreshing day because of it! The green just POPED that day!

Tuesday, May 13th 2014

This time around I actually had cravings other than pickles! Anything and everything tomato – I wanted it! That particular day my sweet husband stopped by the store on the way home for work for just four tomatoes.

Wednesday, May 14th 2014

I was not feeling spectaular that day, whether it was pregnancy symptoms or what. My cat, Tayte, and I took it easy and watched one of my all time favorite movies: The Other Sister.

Thursday, May 15th 2014

While I was on the phone with doctors and nurses and getting labs drawn, Tayte took it easy. Her new spot in the house is on top of the couch NEAR the window. She doesn’t always need to look out of it, but she’s happiest near it.

Friday, May 16th 2014

I finally got the doctors on my side that day and it had been a struggle all week to do so. We ordered Chinese food and my fortune cookie obviously did not know what my dearest wish is.

Saturday, May 17th 2014

Feeling optimistic and happy we wandered around our new town and surrounding areas in attempt to get better acclimated.

Sunday, May 18th 2014

After being in a go-go-go state for awhile got to us – and that day we stayed in our pajamas. I managed to get Steven hooked on Once Upon a Time and we spent the entire binge watching it!

Monday, May 19th 2014

We had the house pretty much in order (or so we thought) and all that was really left was the frames to be hung. I didn’t know if I should even try to hang a bunch of things in my office because that’s the room that would eventually be turned into a nursery.

Tuesday, May 20th 2014

Halfway through my happiness project I was painfully reminded of why I started it. I started getting symptoms that reminded me a whole lot of my first miscarriage and when Steven got off work we spent six very long hours in the emergency room. BUT I did paint my nails that morning, so that was my happiness of the day.

It’s strange that these are the ten days that I got to be excited about my second pregnancy. If you read my last post (The M Word, Vol. 2), you’re aware that I lost my second pregnancy. It’s been a rough time, but there’s always something that makes me happy. Life is good, but sometimes it throws things at me that really put me to the test!

100 Happy Days ♥ Days 31 through 40

Goodness gracious! In between allergies, a semi-busy schedule, slowly trying to put together the puzzle of our new home (I promise we’ve been done with unpacking – it’s just trying to really make sure everything is where we want it), and having been thrown out of the habit when we did not have internet for that short while – I fell off the blogging wagon! Through all that, I’ve been trying my best to stay on top of the #100HappyDays challenge!

100 Happy Days, Days 1 – 10 & 11 – 20 & 21 – 30

In case you are new to my blog, I have been taking part in the 100 Happy Days Challenge and I have been posting my daily happy onto my Instagram account @CameraKristen. This year started with a big slap in the face and I had a hard time coping. This challenge is definitely helping me to remember to look for all the HAPPY in each and every day.

Thursday, May 1st 2014

My absolute favorite thing about Kansas is the SKY here! Summer skies here are full of fluffy clouds and amazingly colorful sunrises and sunsets!

Friday, May 2nd 2014

Nothing feeds baby fever quite like spending a few hours with a cute lil guy who is not even old enough to crawl! Baby giggles and wonder and everything in between – oh my!

Saturday, May 3rd 2014

Some may see a field full of weeds – but I see a whole lot of wishes to be made!

Sunday, May 4th 2014

Wandering around Fort Riley, we’re starting to get our barrings. It’s not so bad once you have been back and forth from certain areas, but tell me a new place to go, and I will still definitely need my GPS!

Monday, May 5th 2014

I took this photo because the “Cinco de Yolo” I found pathetic (WHY must we keep saying this?! “Seize the day” “C’est La Vie” actually have class and make sense. You only live once sounds like it came from the Journal of Common Sense) BUT it was also taken during a good part of the day. We thought we had so much to do that day, but it turned out that we planned to do so much on the wrong day! So, we ate lunch at Carlos O’Kelly’s (these are not in California – and when we moved here I thought it was going to be a weird Irish and Mexican fusion restaurant- it’s not) and we people watched.

Tuesday, May 6th 2014

Since moving on post, we have made a good habit of visiting the gym inside our community office. We have also made a point to stop by the arcade on the way out!

Wednesday, May 7th 2014

The 7th was my birthday! 28 years old and not a day younger!

Thursday, May 8th 2014

My husband got me the Chocolate Bar eyeshadow palette by Too Faced for my birthday (it smells like chocolate!) and I could not wait to use it! I may even do a review? I’m in love!

Friday, May 9th 2014

The day prior I had changed our bedding, we put on our memory foam back onto the mattress, and Tayte slept the whole night through! It was the first night she had not woken us up at 3:30AM since the move! … We’re still working on getting her into a normal sleep schedule!

Saturday, May 10th 2014

This photo is a complete misrepresentation of that day – BUT it was a little piece of happy from that day. I tried to get my office put together and straighten up the house a bit before Steven’s friends came over for a BBQ! It was a beautiful day outside, the food was great, and we had excellent company!

Please excuse the once and again posting! I promise to get back in the habit from here on out! ♥